Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Shouldn't there be balloons or something?

So I thought long and hard about what sort of post I should make, as this is my 100th post, and for the longest time I wasn't really sure what to do, or even if I should make a big deal out of it.  I mean, after all, given the amount of time I have had my blog, it's not all that many posts.  Of course, with a post like that, it should maybe be something more than just what I normally do.  I mean, this is kind of a momentous occasion for me.  I think this is the longest I have ever kept up with writing something, outside of a livejournal, which was mainly whining about boys.  Then it got even more momentous, when I found that I had hit over 10, 000 pageviews.  Now it wasn't just one, but two milestones.  Yay for pressure. 

I've been thinking a good week about this, but I still didn't know exactly.  I didn't want to just make it a random day in the life post.   This is something kind of important now.  I thought maybe I should do a post about language and be academic.  The problem is I really don't have enough stuff to really make a coherent article.  I could bung a whole bunch of little points together, but is that really what I want to do; throw an article together just to fill it up?  So I just let it go, and thought that inspiration will hit me.  

Mother in Law is visiting for the week here and Tuesday Partner had classes.   So I thought I'd have lunch with him, while Mother in Law went to eat with a friend.  I went with her to République by métro where she went up with her friend, and then headed to campus.  It was a really nice day.  I had my iPod and it was just so nice.  I waited a little bit, but he didn't take long.  I had music, so I was nicely distracted until he got there.  We had a nice calm lunch, and then he went to his next class.  I called mother in law and let her know I was on my way back to meet up with them.  We ended up doing a full tour of the stores in the center of town, and took the métro back, stopping off to pick up something small for dinner before we came back.  

It was around 8:20 when we talked about meeting Partner on campus, but we weren't sure when his classes were over or what he needed to do, so we decided that we would start dinner.  As we're getting things around, I realize that we'll never have enough dressing since Partner only likes a little salad with his dressing.  We had a few options:  we could eat the salad without dressing, which was not a problem for me or Mother in Law really, but a real problem for Partner.  We could maybe run down to the Netto and get some more, and that would work...if it were an hour earlier since it closed at 7:30.  So the only real option was to go down to Alma and pick up some more at the Carrefour.  We had walked a lot so I decided to go it alone, since I was pretty sure it would be closing pretty soon anyway.  

I put in the iPod and listened to music until the bus came, and luckily it didn't take long.  I walked down to the entrance, because there was only the one closest to Carrefour that was opened.  I ran in the entrance and straight back to find the salad dressing.  As soon as I had picked up the bottle a worker wearing in line skates basically told me to go immediately to the registers.  The security guard came behind me and brought the guard rope down directly behind me.  

I didn't need anything else so I went in where there were two guys who had no sacks checking out.  Of course, they weren't buying much, but it was pretty funny watching the one guy trying to jam a bottle of whiskey into his coat pocket.  There was a couple ahead of me who had a few things, but the husband ran off for something, jumping the guard wire.  She said that I could go in front of her, I said thanks, and moved ahead.  Naturally, the roll needs to be changed on the receipt printer right before I check out, but it's over quickly  I pay, and I'm out. 

Now right as I walk out, I realize that I have two options.  I can wait for the bus until lord knows when, or I can just start walking.  There's no rain and it's not a cold night.  It's a clear night so all the stars are out, and I'm just walking and listening to the music.  I wasn't really paying attention what song was on until then.  I knew the song but couldn't remember what it was from.  I look down at my iPod, and the title:  Farm Boy. 

I smile a bit and think about how this night is quite a bit like my life, and how different this is from what I expected I'd be doing in 10 years.  It was just all so wonderfully random, and spur of the moment.  I'm walking home on a street in France at 9 pm with a bottle of salad dressing to get home to my mother in law and partner where we will have dinner while speaking French, watch TV which will all be in French, and then go to bed.  I'll repeat this whole process tomorrow.  It was in that moment that I realized not only how lucky I was, but also and maybe more importantly, how happy I was. 

I remember writing in the special edition that they put out for the senior class where I saw myself in 10 years.  Seriously, verbatim, it was "living in an apartment in Europe, maybe with a couple of kids, but who knows."  In reality, I figured I'd be in some desk job, which I'd leave at the end of the day to return alone to my sad little apartment...only to start the whole thing over tomorrow. 

I smiled to myself and this farm boy from Ohio returned to his partner and mother in law in his apartment to have a nice French dinner and watch our French TV programs until we go to bed.  I don't think I had slept that well in a while.  

17 comments:

  1. oh my there needs to be a word, for that moment when you look around your life and realize that the normalities of your life are so beautiful and perfect and so far from what we could have ever imagined for ourselves...it is the most wonderful feeling in the world.

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    1. I think it's in those moments we know we are truly alive. Today was another example of that fact while looking at a fort that's only accessible at low tide. I've never seen cool shit like that in the US. In other news, I want to be Jacques Cartier.

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  2. I can teach you how to make a vinegarette if you'd like. :) Happy 100th.

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    1. I'm always looking for new recipes. Before I used to just eat it with nothing, but I found a kind I like here. In the US, I find them all to sugary or taste like pouring mayonnaise on the salad.

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    1. I guess the best is to live in interesting times!

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  4. This is beautiful... and somehow hopeful to read.

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    1. Hope is really the best of things we have. Without hope, why stick around for tomorrow?

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  5. tamayn!

    I echo Jason's comment.

    This post gives me hope.

    Maybe one day I'll meet an amazing man and get to see the other part of the world too!

    -Dean

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    1. I wouldn't worry too much about meeting someone. It usually happens when you least expect it. In 2004, the last thing I expected was to meet Partner and least of all to move to France. Life changes fast though.

      The most important is to work to be happy as you are.

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  6. Congratulations on your 100th post! The first 100 is the hard part. Additional congratulations for finding your dream. Love your blog! Hugs from Portland, Oregon USA

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    1. Thanks! Of course, now it's just a matter of getting everything together. I guess the dream is more step by step than I thought.

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  7. Hello Tamayn,

    Just checking out on you. Hope everything is going well.

    Hugs
    Jon

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    1. I'm good, tired, but good. Getting more excited about the elections!

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  8. well done on your 100th.... there will be a lot more!

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    1. Thanks for the wishes! I wish I were feeling more inspired lately.

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  9. Ok, I've given you a month + before writing (i have no direct email for you). You ok?

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