He did not know if he
had woken himself up, or if the ringing of the phone had done it.
Either way though he was awake. He got out of bed, and picked the
phone off the table, looking at the time before opening the cover.
Whoever was calling hopefully had a good reason for calling at half
past one.
“Hello,” he said quietly into the phone. Estelle, his
girlfriend, was still asleep, and left the room as he was answering
so that she would not wake up.
“Marc,” a small yet familiar voice said, “it’s Mom.”
“Mom, what’s wrong.”
“It’s your father. He’s not home yet.”
“When did he day he would be home?” Marc asked, walking over to
the couch.
“He told me he would be right home tonight,” Mom said.
He sat down on the couch, “Well, maybe he just got held up. You
know how sometimes there’s just a rush right before he leaves.”
“This isn’t Chicago, Marc. This is Bedford. There’s no road
where there might be a twelve car pile up. Anyway, I’ve been
listening to the radio. There were no reports of anything.”
“You know, he’s probably just out. He does this all the time.”
“I know, but he said that he would be straight home, he knows how I
worry…”
“Did you call him?”
“Even if he takes the cell phone when he goes out, the fool just
leaves it in his jacket, under a pile of 600 other jackets on
vibrate. There’s no real point in having the thing in the first
place.”
“Well, no news is good news,” he said, resisting the urge to lay
back.
“No news just means that they haven’t put out the wreckage yet,”
Mom said, audibly upset.
“Mom, you can’t do this to yourself. Why don’t you go back to
sleep?”
“Because I can’t sleep till he’s in bed next to me. Why does
he do this to me? He knows how I worry.”
Marc assumed his usual position on the couch. He lay back against
the pillows on the couch, and sighed. After the last few months this
position was becoming familiar, especially at this time of night.
His mother called, panicked about anything from why his sister had
not called her in two days, to a dream she had about his grandmother
who had been dead for 20 years. The calls tended to cycle though,
and lately complaining about his father had become a favorite.
Maybe his father was driving home, and came upon an accident, and was
being a Good Samaritan by helping out the people. It’s possible,
but it was not likely. Perhaps he had a flat tire. She would just
worry about him being along the side of the road alone. There was
the possibility he was out drinking and lost track of time.
Truthfully this was the most accurate, but that was not the response
for which Mom was looking.
“Mom,” said Marc. “You have to try and relax. This isn’t
doing anyone any good, least of all yourself.”
“I’m sorry to call you, but if I called your sister, I would have
woken up Sam or if I called your brother, he would have just gotten
annoyed.”
“No Mom, it’s ok. If you’re worried, I would prefer you called
me instead of just sitting there alone.”
Marc rubbed his eyes. “The only other thing I can think to do is
call the hospital.”
“Well, I think I will wait until 3 for that.”
“Mom, you have to relax. I know it’s not easy, but this isn’t
helping anyone.”
“I know, but I don’t know what else to do. Why does he do this to
me?”
“I dunno.”
“Well, I am just keeping you up. Thanks for talking to me. I am
going to hang up, and I will call you back if he’s not home by 3.”
“Ok Mom, I love you. Try and relax.”
“I love you too, Marc. Bye.”
“Bye.”
Marc got up off the couch and walked back to the bedroom. He plugged
the phone back into the charger, waited for the flash and the
charging beep, and lay back down in bed.
“So who was on the phone, she asked already knowing the answer,”
she said slightly muffled by the pillow.
“Sorry if I woke you up, but you know no one else is going to talk
to her,” Marc said curling up against her and kissing her on the
shoulder.
“Your sister uses those children like escape pods. I swear she had
those kids as more of a bargaining chip than love.”
“Well, you tell me, who would you rather come home to; me or that
Neanderthal Sam.”
“I don’t even want to think about him.”
“If
that’s the case, then you could think about me.”
“And
I’ll have pleasant dreams.”
“You
know, the night is young.”
“And
so are we, and there will be many other nights.”
“So
then-.”
“So
then I am going to go back to sleep, because I have to face 20 kids
tomorrow.”
“Don’t
worry, we won’t be up that long.”
“Yeah,
that sweetens it. Sorry, but those kids are the best argument
against. Goodnight.”
“Spoilsport.”
Marc kissed Estelle on the back of the neck and returned to his side
of the bed. Images of what had happened began to flash through his
head. His father had been injured, and was laying in the car,
bleeding to death. He would have to take off work to go be with his
mother. The rest of his family would never do it, so it was all up
to him.
Marc’s sister always had the excuse of being a girl to get her out
of most anything. Marc was always surprised that his father always
believed her when she said that she just didn’t understand math
after coming home with a new dress. This excuse came from the same
girl who had aced honors calculus her senior year. His father would
smile, say he understood, and nothing more was mentioned.
Looking back on his life, there were only a handful of events in his
life where alcohol had not been present. Both he and his sister had
pictures of a hand mysteriously similar to his father’s holding a
beer to give the illusion that the child was drinking. Most events
involved the same group of friends coming to the family parties for
baptisms, communions or confirmations. The same group of friends he
had from elementary school, high school, and attended college, and
would inevitably be there to his dying day.
He imagined the funeral, most likely at a church. All sorts of
people his mother never knew would be there, coming up to the casket,
saying goodbye. She would be lost among the faces, even more so
because she had always said that if anything happened to his father,
she would have to be heavily medicated to make it through.
Mom would be speaking softly, sharing treasured memories about her
husband’s life. She would tell anyone who would listen about how
they met, and how they fell in love. She would smile and remember
their first dates, and how he gave her a ring, and a house, and a
family. Tonight would not be among the topics.
His sister would be there, with her husband Sam, and their beautiful
screaming chain of children. Children were great, so long as he
could just play with them, and then send them home to their parents
after they were heavily dosed with sugar. His sister would cry the
same tears she cried that got her that first car. Sam would put his
arm around her, consoling her, telling her how he was a great man.
People would come up to his mother, and up to him (because to whom
else would she cling) and tell them how sorry he or she was to hear
of his father’s passing. This must be such a sad time for them,
and how if there was anything they could do to help, just let them
know. People that had long severed connections with the family for
one reason or another would appear from places he had not been in
years. Everyone would be putting up a saddened façade, but really
the whole atmosphere would be a reunion of sorts.
After the ceremony, Sam would pass the children to his wife, and go
out with his friends. Later, Marc would get a call from his mother,
who was called by his sister after Sam had been arrested, and needed
to be bailed out of jail. His sister could not go alone, so he would
be called to drive his thoroughly drunk brother-in-law home. After
Sam was asleep, his sister would call him, crying about how she
finally understood what Mom meant about the sacrifices of marriage.
He moved closer to Estelle, and put his arm around her. She turned
in towards him, and moved closer against him. She slowly put her arms
around him and kissed him.
“What was that for?” he asked, kissing her on the forehead.
“Nothing,” she said, smiling and looking into his eyes. “I’m
cold. Come closer.”
Marc moved so that her head was against his chest. Estelle exhaled
heavily and pulled her legs against his.
“Do you love me?”
“Come on Stell, you know I do.”
“And will you make an honest woman of me someday?”
“ ’Course.”
“And we’ll have everything?”
“Mm, hm, with a ring, and a house, and a family.”
Estelle smiled and ran her hands through Marc’s hair. She looked
up at him with her green eyes, and shook her head softly. Marc lay
there, listening to the streetlight buzz outside, and eventually turn
off. He thought about finishing college. They only had a few more
years, but there was still graduate school. If he played his cards
right, maybe he could be an eternal student. Estelle could teach,
and he would work some desk job. They would be happy enough to get
by. But he thought that there was no point in worrying about things.
After all, everything happens eventually. Marc closed his eyes, put
his head against Estelle’s and tried to go back to sleep.
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